Harder than anything
It's Friday again but I dont feel a thing anymore.Night class starts at 7pm later.I hope they will tell me we're going for movie after my class.I'm going for my lash extension tml if the outcome is good I will take a picture of it if it's not then I'll remove them.It can only last for a month.I'm not blogging daily anymore.There's nothing for me to blog about already but I'm active in Facebook.

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I dont know what to say or do.Nobody is wrong here.I think you're like me sick & tired of it already.There's no fuel to keep the love burning,we knew it but we didn't mention.We're afraid that it would hurts.We did nothing to make it turns for a better.We dont know if letting go is the best choice so none of us mention because we know what it would be like if we were to regret again.We don't want the history to repeat.Afterall it was a 2year 8month r/s the longest we have & we put a lot of effort in it didn't we? This is what I think & I think you think the same way as me .I wondered how long are we going to stay like this,I wondered how long will we find a solution to it,I wondered what would be the ending & who ended.I'll feel better & never regret if you're the one who ends it.

I went over to Huiting's place for dinner yesterday.She did medicure for me.302 for supper then fetch Peizhen & back to her place.I realised ahting can be irritating at times & also very naggy.Haha! Used the laptop,talk cock,burping session & webcam.Managed to fall asleep at 4.30am.Woke up at 11.30am by mummy's call & I realised Ahting was sleeping on the floor while Peizhen & I were on the bed.Lol! Send Peizhen home then went to meet Rachel for dinner & bused home together.

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My six sense is always right.Baby didn't managed to book out on the Friday night.He book out on the Saturday morning.Meet up with Deshuan,Ahchen,Papaboy,Rachel & Zhengyang for movie at Cineleisure after night class on Friday.Dine in at Pastamania after movie,slacked & cabbed home.I vomit after we got down the cab.Back to Baby's place while some went for Majong.

I got a very weird dream.How I wished I can dream about that again.I know that was not the right thing to do.I cant think of it at all but I cant help,I cant stop thinking worst of all I miss.Its only temporary,I know.

Work on the Saturday till 9pm.Majong at Baby's place from 12am till 3plus with Ahchen,Baby & Kokleong.Bath & slept till 3pm this afternoon.Lunch with Baby then off to meet Rachel & Co.Majong at Danny's place.Left after I finished watching the prize giving awards.Baby's dad drove me home.

Baby text me one hour ago,he say "Baby,goodnight.I know you think a lot but its ok."I felt guilty already.Where can I find a boyfriend like him? I want to thank Rachel & Marcus for giving me advices.Actually,I dont know what I want either.This week is the worst week for Baby & I.We didn't quarrelled everything was fine but we didn't talk much.I'm very SORRY :'(

It's 3.47am now.I'm going to bed already & stop thinking.I think alot this few days I cant control my mind & I hate it.

I hate April.
Finally I can sleep all I want as I'm not working today but I'm bored like crazy at home.I hope the time can pass faster so that I can attend my night class then off to Baby's place to meet him.My feeling tells me he might not be able to book out today.

I'm super duper bored! I hope May would be a better month for me ;)

He give me the feeling I lost long ago.
Waking up at 11am is a torture to me.As I'm working part time already my sleeping time changed completely.In the past,I always woke up like 8 something to 9am daily even during my off day but now,I can sleep as long as I could other than Wednesday & Thursday.Today I forced myself to prepared & off to work. I'm working tml,Sat as well :(

Yana cook riceballs for me to bring to work while I was preparing (: As usual,after we finished the things we were asked to do we can do whatever things we want till we finished work.Listen as she updated me with the latest news about the shop to our personal stuffs.Huixian came over for awhile to chat.Home after work.

I finally found people who are willing to do lash extension with me next Saturday.In fact I found 2 in case one of them cant make it.I love them so much & I can't wait till next Saturday.

Limited timeMeet Baby after class at AhChen's place on Friday night for Majong tgt with Deshuan & Papaboy.1 round of majong & I won 32bucks (: Walked home together with Baby,Deshuan & Papaboy.Cleaned up,apply mask for myself then enjoy my hongkong drama before falling asleep.

Woke up by Rachel's call as we're meeting for movie.Prepared we bused to Town tgt with Papaboy,Deshuan,AhChen & Baby.We watch "Monga".Bused home after movie as they're meeting the rest for fishing.Baby & AhChen went fishing with Casper & Danny while Rachel,Papaboy & I decide where to go in the end,we went Chervon.Deshaun came to look for us.Sing & drink till 3am then cabbed back for supper.I reached Baby's place at 4am.Bath & continued watching my drama.Intend to watch till Baby's returned but I fall asleep at 5am.

I like staying at Baby's place with him for the whole day lying on the bed watching drama.I used to find it boring but now I enjoy to the fullest because there's only 2 of us.

Me: Baby ok already?
Baby:Later lo.Baby I doing my bed changing shirt
Me:Oh you helping your bed change shirt ah?
Baby:Ya.haha
Me:You like mah? You must like cause next time you helping our son to change.Hahahaha!
Baby:Haha! Ya lo.

When you're in a long r/s you tend to talk about the future to keep the ball rolling.

First step.

The previous was published today but I dont know why it show Thursday instead of Friday.I'm not feeling very well after eating the KFC.I got the feeling of throwing everything I ate. :( Called Baby just now,he's coming back in an hour time^^.I'm going to prepare,pack my clothes,off to Baby's place then trained to school soon.Btw,I want to go for a medicure soon because my nails are of the same length already ^^

I hope Baby faster finish serving NS,find a job,save lots of money then settle down.In this case,we can go oversea tgt once we save the money not only oversea we can do lots of thing after we save up.I know,it's easier said than done but still said & plane come before work done right?

Unfamiliar.
Work & classes kept me occupied for days.It was raining heavily on Tuesday evening still I hold an umbrella & trained to school & I stayed till the class end.It's damn boring because I dont have friends there.Texted with Celestine,Rachel & Baby almost till class end.

Wednesday & Thursday were working days for me.Time pass fast.Wednesday night meet up with Baby after work as it was his night out.We left after he finished bathing.We didnt talk much as I'm not very happy with him.The reason I went up is to put the drama I took from work.

I was on phone with Rachel for 1hour & 30mintues straight after I finished work yesterday.When was the last time we chatted so long on phone? Haha! :)

Night class later.I'm craving for Chawamushi

I love my Baobao most (:

Monday & Tuesday (:
Meet up with Celestine at Boonlay before class.Celestine & I brought M)phosis slipper.Supposed to buy the same design but they don't have their size.Dine in at Pizzahut.We spent an hour inside talking & eating.Next,was Citibella for medicure/pedicure.She did medicure while I did pedicure.It's was Baby's night out so Baby & his campmates came to look for us before going for their dinner.We spent an hour just for our nails & we were late for class.Trained to Yewtee after we finished our medicure/pedicure.There were people who came later than us I wonder why did they come as the lesson is ending soon.

Walked to Mrt with Celestine then we went separate ways.Rachel called when I was in the train & we chat all the way till I reached home (; Phone with Baby before he goes to bed then called Rachel as she said she will call me before she sleep but she didn't call.I guess she slept already.Dear Celestine,Me too,I enjoyed my day with you today :)

This morning,Mum came into my room to wake me up for prata.Of course I didn't wake up it's 9am in the morning.Some wrong no. called,I was damn irritated by him I already said there's no such person & he kept reading my house tel no. to me dont know for what.At 11am,Deshuan called.Prepared & we went for lunch,Pizzahut again.After dining,he went for a stick then we bused home as he needs to book in at 3pm.

3 more hours before leaving to class.

A taste of your medicine.
I was crying badly last night till I couldn't breathe.The first person I call wasn't Rachel or Baby is Isabelle.What a surprise! She said she going to come back immediately.30mintues later she say she is in the bus coming back from VivoCity already.I was half way to sleep when she called & asked me to open the door for her.

Mummy just text me to ask what happened last night.I was angry & I felt guilty to my maid.Because few months ago,I scolded her only 2 sentences & she cried.Yesterday,I finally know why she cried not because she's crazy because she's hurt just like what happened to me last night :( I'm a bad girl I tends to treat people badly but that was accidentally & not purposely.I guess people around me are getting used to it,especially Baby (:

I got huge eye bags again :((

I don't mind telling lies everyday.
I cant get to sleep last night even after hanging up with Baby I still cant get to bed.I text him to tell him what I'm unhappy about.It's definitely not him that I'm unhappy about.I managed to go to bed after Isabelle came back.Woke up at 9am in the morning it's been weeks since I work up so early therefore I'm damn exhausted.Work was fine today as there's only Limin & I in the shop as Boss went Malaysia & is not coming back today.We spent the whole day eating,crapping,watching tv till closing.Baby's mum came & Limin asked her a question that his mum don't know how to answer.Lol! Sometimes,she is adorable sometimes,she's as blur as a sotong! :D

I'm meeting Celestine tml for shopping before going for class.I hope tml class will be an interesting one.I always regret going when my teacher start chanting non-stop. :(

Bliss
I spend this few days with the companion of my love & I enjoy it to the fullest (: Although he needs to attend course & I need to work on Wednesday & Thursday at least we got the time to sleep beside each other.Mahjong almost everyday at different location & we never fail to deliver Mac for supper.It's fattening,I know! :(

Meet Rachel at Segar1 for dinner after classes while Baby's still sleeping.Text him to let him know I'm going to mahjong before going back his place but he only replied after I reached.He asked me to go to his place first.After dinner,went to Rachel's place for mahjong then Baby came afterwards.He helped me play while I was entertaining to Rachelsoul.I'm damn interested in the eyelash extention that Rachel shows me I hope I can get it done before my birthday anyway,Baby is paying for me :DAfter mahjong,back to Baby's place,cleaned up then watch Dvds while waiting for our Mac delivery.Both of us slept w'o finishing the show.

You tug me to bed,kiss me goodnight,hug me throughout,wake me with kisses & kiss me goodbye.What more can I asked for? I just want you to remain maybe not forever but at least till the day I stop depending on you. Happy 2year 8month (:

Rachel's Seventeen Birthday (^-^)

Lastly,Rachel is Love <3

My Day.
Went steamboat yesterday for Rachel's birthday celebration & we took hundred of pictures.(; It's was a bad day for me as I knock over a soup on my leg & its boiling hot! :'( So red,sharp pain,burning hot & swell a bit.Luckily Rachel who sat beside me move fast enough.Rachel wipe my leg,darling helped me ease the pain by putting ice cubes on my thigh while I was moaning away.

After steamboat,we were stuck in the arcade for hour before deciding where to go.After hours,we went to a near by pub to chill.Cabbed home at 4am with Papaboy & Zhengyang.It's was drizzling,poor zhengyang have to walk home. (:

Baby just text me.He reached Singapore already & is coming to fetch me over to his place :)

Good Friday.

I stayed over at Rachel's place yesterday & she helped me with something you can never guess it right! Haha! Slept at 2am & woke up at 7am by AhChen's call then start preparing at 8.30am.After everything,went down to meet Co. then we board the bus we rent & off we go.

Reached there at 12plus.The guy fish while we mahjong & we take turns for cannoning.It's was damn scary but fun after all (: I played 3 rounds of mahjong & only managed to win 1buck (-.-) Packed everything at 6pm then off we go.Dinner at Fajar about 2hours ago & now I'm home.We're going to Chervon later.I'hv already finish preparing,waiting for the time to pass then off to meet Zhengyang before meet Co.

I'm wearing 2 ring on a finger from now onward.I think Baby'll be damn surprise because I'm wearing our ring again.Ever since I brought a new ring I left our ring aside because I got no finger to wear it.Asked him to stop wearing as I'm not wearing anymore but he insisted to wear not allowing me to remove.I can see 2 shades of colour on his finger when he took off his ring before bathing.I'm smiling inside my heart when I saw that :')